The Most Terrifying Thing

(This book took me three years to finish. It was a struggle but I wake up everyday and congratulate myself for sticking with it and getting it done.  And I ask myself, what if I had never tried to write a book!!)

A novel by R.E. Beevor - that's my author name

Set in the autumn of a misfit’s life, Dr Robin Goodfellow is an inept psychologist, riddled with autistic hang-ups and guilt from the loss of the only woman who ever loved him. She disappeared, or did she? 
A new client enters his living nightmare and fires his belief in the supernatural and with it, hope of finding the love he has lost and his salvaged sanity. 
In the dawn of denial owning up is terrifying, when an uninvited visitor challenges his personal ethics with exasperating, constructive abuse. Can he man up and make the journey? 

As author, I invite you into the world of autism and ADHD.  It's an emotional  roller coaster so tighten your seat belts!

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The Most Terrifying Thing

In praise of Roz's novel:

Top reviews from United Kingdom

D. Morris

4.0 out of 5 stars A mystery of the divided self

Reviewed in the United Kingdom on 12 August 2019

This book is really good; maybe better than really good, in fact. The writing is beautiful – simple, poetic, multivalent. I lingered over phrases like “an old boy wearing Harold Wilson’s defeated Ganex”, “the magnificent stone throne of winter”, “a Mobius strip of a question with no way out”. It sings.

I always like the fully subjective viewpoint of an unreliable narrator. So many novels these days are like movie scripts; they just describe what is happening. But the great strength of the novel is that, unlike other forms of fiction, it can tell us not only what happens but how it feels. That interiority is essential to great writing and the author has nailed it.


5.0 out of 5 stars An exceptional read

Reviewed in the United Kingdom on 7 August 2019

'The Most Terrifying Thing’ is a book for everyone, especially for those with an interest in psychology and the human mind. It is a stimulating and intriguing study of how one individual’s mind works.

The main character, Dr Robin Goodfellow is an autistic psychologist with a vey complex personality. He appears to be suffering from a mental breakdown and although it's difficult to decide whether the other characters we are introduced to are real or facets of Dr Goodfellow’s own mind, it doesn’t really matter as the further you progress the more you enjoy the book regardless.

He seems to be trying to understand himself and what happened to him through an array of personalities who may be real or imagined. At the end of the book one still isn’t certain whether he has reached the state of mind he’s been craving.

It certainly is an absorbing book.

I reviewed the Kindle version called ‘When The Shadow Calls’ but it is the same book.

Mrs E D

5.0 out of 5 stars A book that keeps you thinking ...

Reviewed in the United Kingdom on 12 August 2019

If you have an interest in psychology and the machinations of the mind then this book will definitely intrigue. Even if psychology isn’t your thing, ‘The Most Terrifying Thing’ is a truly unique book as we follow the main protagonist, autistic psychologist Dr Robin Goodfellow, through a mental melt down and out the other side. As he searches to make sense of himself and the loss of the ‘love of his life’ we get to know an array of complex characters that are fundamental to his internal journey and destination. This book has both a dream-like quality and the pace of a thriller. It leaves the reader with many plot theories and questions and makes for a fascinating and absorbing read.